Things Cannot Remain The Same

I am on the pursuit of becoming the greatest artist of all time! That has been one of the biggest goals of my life; however, I have realized that in order to make this dream into reality something must change. I cannot remain the same.

For years I have worked in black and white (charcoal) to differentiate myself from other artists in the game, I’ve made it into my own personal style and my creativity was in a league of it’s own. Over the past year I became hungry to better myself; I researched and studied many different artists even the ones that have come before me. I practiced many different styles of art and mediums, and I’ve read many books on artists and their works that have changed the world. During this time I became insecure, thinking that I couldn’t reach the heights of some of the greatest to ever do it… and in my mind that would sort of invalidate my existence in the world. It would make me feel as though that I am nothing more than a mistake in this world that serves no other purpose than to disappoint.

Driven by fear and excitement that was caused by this challenge (which felt so hopeless to overcome) I reached a new level. I got rid of my old ideology that I had to make all of my artwork in B&W to stand out, and started to incorporate color to bring more depth and meaning behind each piece as well as the concepts within them. I have truly grown as an artist but parts of me will never allow myself celebrate these small victories because I have to stay hungry. The feeling of fear and anxiety that consumed me became fuel for the burning passion in my soul to become the best.

So what’s next? How will I continue to improve and reach newer heights? I’ve been trying to take inspiration from Vincent Van Gogh and his expressionist art style,

I have slightly altered my art style to look more unrealistic by using some of Van Gogh’s technique through oil pastels. The goal is to play with perspective just a bit, I’m going to incorporate what I’ve learned and apply it to future art pieces by making objects/people blurry as if you were to blur the background of a picture taken by a camera or cellphone. With my creativity, heavy hitting concepts, mixing B&W with color, and blurring whatever I see fit, I will have taken a step closer to my goal. Once I have established this new style… not one artist in the world (dead or alive) will ever make me feel so insecure again!

Would you say that I am arrogant and/or full of myself for thinking I can be the greatest artist in the world?

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